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22   is when i started using photoshop.
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24   is when J left me and moved to France...and A drifted away.
25        i met M.
26   is when i really messed things up with M.
27      is when V and T and T didn't work out at all.
28 is how old i am
29   is how old i will be soon.
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38 is how old i feel...
39                     thru nights and nights of
40					radiation from my monitor
41                    and my girlfriend wondering why
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38									(i wonder if the computer makes my bald spot bigger?
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19                    and it makes sense to her
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17           here [insert city name] i am a web celebrity.
16      and a web designer before anyone else...
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13     that i should have a better job.  [or do better work?]
12                                     and not this Start-up Company.
11            which could make me rich....
10         but really just makes me tired...
9    and That is how much i made last year...
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2               and that is how much patience i have left...
1  and that is for wishing this was Just for a design contest...
0  and not the way i really feel.
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2  but this isn't the first start-up
3   and that many girlfriends have dissaproved
4      and that many years ago i didn't change either
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7   and i don't think i'll get lucky.


linenumber poem. [line 107 in my Homesite 3.0.1 window.]
(c)March 6th, 2000

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